Confuse Relationship.. help?

Me and my ex broke up 8 weeks ago.. im the one saying quit.. i wan her back but she rejected me ..now she'd calm down .. we chatted in msn..i wanted to call her.. but im afraid that she doesnt wanna pick my call..Im confusing..i apologize to her and told her i will change...what she said is "listen first" I dont understand...she seem like wanted me to change but she doesnt believe that i will change? I brought a box full of her favourite snacks and self-made sushis to her this morning.i just left it in her house.hopefully she did received it. I'm nervous now. I hope tat she would call me. I tried so hard . tried my best. trying to creat pleasant memories again. I broke her heart too many times. I just wanted to take back all the pain I gave and give all the love i owed her. I love her so much. I wanted to apologize face to face to her... i dont dare to ask her out for a drink .. afraid that her answer is "no"